Fate

So i was going through all the files on my laptop and came across a poem i had written my senior year of high school for my creative writing class. It's about a struggle with losing a best friend, having your trust betrayed and having to move on and let go.

Fate

Tainted Friendship
rivers of acid burn my cheeks.
once "sisters", now strangers.
I place a mask upon my face,
it hides my weakness with strength.
A facade.
My insides a tangled mess.
Anguish.
Millions of thoughts race through my mind,
weaving webs of ambivalence,
unraveled by a single word,
the good, the bad, flood my body.
Drowning in sorrow,
too tired to stay afloat.
I let go and succumb to fate.

Where do i come up with this stuff??? It's sad that the frienship i had with this girl ended in such a harsh way. I have let go and don't regret a day of our frienship but don't think i'd really want it back now. Everything happens for a reason and we had to go our seperate ways.

keeping busy

Okay it's been a minute since i've posted. I've been super busy with juggling school and work. It's exhausting but I am loving it. I feel like a completely different person, like my life now has meaning. After 3 days of being in school we finally got our schedules worked out. I have 5 different classes each night; Medical History, English 1, Communication, Medical Law and Ethics, and Word Processing. My English class is moving super fast. We've already had a pop quiz and a spelling test. (which i did really well on if i do say so myself)

My best friend Brooke and I took her little sister Brynlee and my niece Delaney Ice skating today.

It's been so long since i have gone. Neither girls had been ice skating before so it was a totally new experince and both girls did really well. Delaney picked up on it really quickly and was a pro. She fell A LOT and has the battle wounds to show it, but she was a trouper. Each time she'd fall i would ask her if she was alright and she'd get right back up and say "Everytime i fall I'm always okay." haha. Such the little adult. We had tons of fun. After Ice skating we came back home and played Sing it: High school musical 3 senior year on the wii. WOW! Never thought i'd be caught dead playing that game seeing as i HATE those movies. lol

Wowza

Tonight was the second night of classes. Last night was crazy!!! Schedules were all messed up so no one knew what was going on and where we were supposed to be. Tonight everything seemed all good until the last two classes since they seemed to not realize they didn't have a teacher. My first three classes are fun, they are Medical History, Psychology, and Communications. I have 3 homework assignments already.

Someday

" I'll move on baby just like you When the desert floods and the grass turns blue When a sailing ship don't need her moon It will break my heart but I'll get through Someday when I stop loving you I bet all I had on a thing called love Guess in the end it wasn't enough And it's hard to watch you leave right now I'm gonna have to learn to let you go somehow."