Finish Line

The finish line is in sight. Hallelujah!!! I am MORE than ready to be finished with this term and have a break. Wednesday is the last day of the term. I am really frusterated with a particular instructor. We butt heads to say the least. I am usually an easy person to get along with and don't really have a problem with many people. I have BIG issues with that woman, but at least I only have two more terms and next term I will not have her as an instructor. Ahhh the frustration.!!!!

It's been ages

It has been ages since I have written. This crazy thing we call life has been out of control busy. I recently quit my job at the daycare (after 2 1/2 years) to stay home with Gage and Delaney for the summer and concentrate of school. It was hard leaving my kids, but it was ultimately what I needed to do for myself and my success as a student.

School is going well. I have made the presidents list and had 100% attendance for the first two terms. We have only six more days in the current term and I am super excited. This term has been a lot better than the last, a lot less drama. Thank goodness. I will be starting my labs and clinicals in the end of June! YAY!!!!!

Summer is finally here! Woot Woot looking forward to getting the boat out and playing.
Bring on the Sunshine!

R.I.P. Grandpa

Last thursday my Grandpa had a severe stroke leaving the top portion of his brain non-functioning, his left side paralized, and him unable to swollow. On Sunday night the family decided to remove his feeding tube. Yesterday they thought he wouldn't survive the afternoon let alone the night. This morning he passed. We love you grandpa and will miss you terribly.

Valentine's Day

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day; What does that even mean? accourding to wikipedia: Valentines Day is an annual holiday held on February 14 celebrating love and affection between intimate companions.

That's all great and dandy but what does that mean for all the single people like myself? In my opinion instead of being a day of celebration it brings heartache (especially for those recently single) self-doubt, and an overall feeling of blah!

Accourding to Dr. Laura S. Brown, professor of psychology at Argosy University/Seattle, “Seeing the illusory nature of this holiday can be the first step in feeling better about being precisely who and where you are.” She offers some tips for singles on how to celebrate V-Day without letting it defeat you:

1. Do not define yourself by your relationship status. Your relationship status is not your identity.

2. If you are single because of a recent loss, allow this to be a day of grieving. Do not pretend that it’s not a hard day. Get support and sympathy.

3. Realize that Valentine’s Day is a commercial holiday. It is not about love and relationships; it is about selling flowers, candy, and diamond jewelry. Think of all the money you are saving.

4. Plan well in advance to do something that will not place you in the path of billing and cooing couples. Even if you usually like dining out alone, do something else on Valentine’s Day.

5. Get together with people who do love you -- friends, family members, the people who already have relationships with you.

6. If you are single and you don’t want to be, start now to think about what is in the way of you creating the relationship you want. Find ways to work on becoming the person your dream partner would fall in love with. Start therapy. Take up yoga. Begin to volunteer. Create art. Make meaning. Act to change the world. It is into the fullest lives that love is most likely to fall.

7. If you are single and you like it, now is the time to affirm your choice. People who never marry or partner have close, loving, emotionally intimate relationships and lives worth living. Do not let a couple-driven culture define your choice as something wrong.

Could these tips really help? Maybe but let's just agree to fast-forward through tomorrow okay? I know that Valentine's Day shouldn't get me down but it does. Now to try and sleep away the "Blah" like I have done all day!

R.I.P Grandpa Grape 2/14/2007

Fate

So i was going through all the files on my laptop and came across a poem i had written my senior year of high school for my creative writing class. It's about a struggle with losing a best friend, having your trust betrayed and having to move on and let go.

Fate

Tainted Friendship
rivers of acid burn my cheeks.
once "sisters", now strangers.
I place a mask upon my face,
it hides my weakness with strength.
A facade.
My insides a tangled mess.
Anguish.
Millions of thoughts race through my mind,
weaving webs of ambivalence,
unraveled by a single word,
the good, the bad, flood my body.
Drowning in sorrow,
too tired to stay afloat.
I let go and succumb to fate.

Where do i come up with this stuff??? It's sad that the frienship i had with this girl ended in such a harsh way. I have let go and don't regret a day of our frienship but don't think i'd really want it back now. Everything happens for a reason and we had to go our seperate ways.

keeping busy

Okay it's been a minute since i've posted. I've been super busy with juggling school and work. It's exhausting but I am loving it. I feel like a completely different person, like my life now has meaning. After 3 days of being in school we finally got our schedules worked out. I have 5 different classes each night; Medical History, English 1, Communication, Medical Law and Ethics, and Word Processing. My English class is moving super fast. We've already had a pop quiz and a spelling test. (which i did really well on if i do say so myself)

My best friend Brooke and I took her little sister Brynlee and my niece Delaney Ice skating today.

It's been so long since i have gone. Neither girls had been ice skating before so it was a totally new experince and both girls did really well. Delaney picked up on it really quickly and was a pro. She fell A LOT and has the battle wounds to show it, but she was a trouper. Each time she'd fall i would ask her if she was alright and she'd get right back up and say "Everytime i fall I'm always okay." haha. Such the little adult. We had tons of fun. After Ice skating we came back home and played Sing it: High school musical 3 senior year on the wii. WOW! Never thought i'd be caught dead playing that game seeing as i HATE those movies. lol

Wowza

Tonight was the second night of classes. Last night was crazy!!! Schedules were all messed up so no one knew what was going on and where we were supposed to be. Tonight everything seemed all good until the last two classes since they seemed to not realize they didn't have a teacher. My first three classes are fun, they are Medical History, Psychology, and Communications. I have 3 homework assignments already.

Someday

" I'll move on baby just like you When the desert floods and the grass turns blue When a sailing ship don't need her moon It will break my heart but I'll get through Someday when I stop loving you I bet all I had on a thing called love Guess in the end it wasn't enough And it's hard to watch you leave right now I'm gonna have to learn to let you go somehow."